Wednesday, March 31, 2004
I was teaching my tuition kid a topic on the eye the other day
So I explained to her why we have tears
It helps to moist the eyes
Clean the eye
Of dust and bacteria and stuffs
Then
She ask me this Q
Why do we cry when we are sad, happy or in great pain?
Erm..
Let me think
I knew that they r different kind of tears
But I forgot why
Mebbe I never knew why
I studied a different branch of biology anyway
So I told her that I'll tell her abt it the next lesson
So...I got back...look for books...surf the net
Here it goes...
There r 3 kinds of tears
Basal tears - lubricate the eye
Reflex tears - protect the eye from foreign particles
Emotional tears - These r produced when the body react emotionally to sumthing
The lacrimal gland usually produced basal tears
Reflex and emotional tears are also extra tears, will be produced when needed.
Scientist discovered that emotional tears contains high level of manganese and the hormone prolactin
Which are directly related to feelings of depression
The tears produced in times of emotional stress
Carry away excess chemicals and hormones
That contribute to anxiety and depression
Its juz the body's way of getting rid of undesirable stuffs
That is why you feel much better after a cry
When crying
Tears then drain down into two tiny openings on the brim of your upper and lower eyelids at the inner edge of your eyes
Which lead to the nasolacrimal tear ducts next to the bridge of your nose
From there, they are channeled into your nasal cavity where they are swallowed or blown out with other nasal fluids
If there are too many tears, they will overflow your lower lid and run down your cheeks.
Cool
Now then I know
Even though crying is part of our life
Never really understood why it happens
Somehow crying makes you look pathetic
Associated with weakness
With women
But then again its good to cry
Try to be macho and refused to cry?
U will have all the chemicals collected up in you
Making you feel even more depressed than ever
Why baby cry then?
They cry for communication
To tell ppl what they want
Usually without tears
When its with tears
It all goes back to square one
becoz of pain, unhappiness..etc..etc
So have a good cry today! Its good for you hahaa
nuthin else matters... @ 1:07 PM ::
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
My tuition kid's mum cancelled tuition at the last minute
I was all ready to leave my house when she called
Sigh..dah siap and all baru bilang...
So as not to waste my effort
I brought Syafiq out
He has been whining to me the whole day
Ask me to bring him to take long bus
He's crazy over the TIBS long buses
And now so smart
He knows that woodlands got a lot
Pretend wanna go woodlands
Heh
And so we went to woodlands
He couldnt control his excitement when we reach the interchange
He was overjoyed
He was jumping and screaming
People turn and look
Sorry la my kid jakun sikit, sengkang takde long bus la~
Took a ride on one to go my couz's place
Had a fun afternoon
Sit on bus rides, but not rushing to go anywhere
Then laze ard at my couz's pl
Eat lunch
Happy
Then I went to this pre-school my friend was telling me abt
To enquire on some playgroup class for syafiq
I think he should go for such class
Its time for him to mingle ard
And get to know more ppl
Other than the familiar faces
I already paid for it
Think that I have made the right decision
Happy
Can't wait to see him to go to school
He was happy to try on his school uniform
Trying his songkok
Flip through his books
Making me even happier
To my tuition kid's mum, thanks for cancelling tuition
You made my day
nuthin else matters... @ 11:38 AM ::
Monday, March 29, 2004
I was feeling so unwell yesterday
After we came back from the zoo trip
Had a terrible headache
Feel like vomitting and stuffs
And a bad case of menses cramp
Yes, I have menses, dun think of all the bukan2 peeps ;)
Dunno what trigger all these
Could be the heat
Or juz very tired
As usual...cant sleep at night
Thinking again...
In the midst of all those pains
Can't imagine what my brain is capable of
Can never switch off or affected by stress so it seems
I realise that I dun feel at home at home
Get wat I mean?
This is my home
Supposed to feel comfy and all
But I don't
I still have the thoughts
Of running away...
To go some places
Where I can relax
Break free from the routines at home
Sounds like how I feel when I was growing up
Shouldn't be feeling that way now isnt it?
Since its my own hse now..
But why am I so unhappy?
Every morning
I woke up to the sounds of baby crying
Syafiq playing and shouting
Then my mum screaming and screaming
At everybody
Syafiq and dad
Very BINGITS
Then I've got to rush everything
Do housework
Bath the kids
Do laundry
Prepare lunch
Cant wait to leave
For my tuition
Away from all the noise pollution
Then another race starts
Rush for one tuition..then another..
My life is always a rush
Reach home end of the day
Still cant relax
Everybody in the hse
Make a mess of everything
Sigh
Even to the moment when I want to sleep
I can't sleep
I think my brain is not producing enuff serotonin
To induce sleep n resting period of the brain
For now, I will continue to dreaming my dreams~
The dreams that will forever stay as dreams
nuthin else matters... @ 12:24 PM ::
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Brought the kids to the zoo today
It has been a very tiring day but satisfying
They were so happy
Syafiq wanted to take a ride on the elephant
I tawt he wouldnt dare
But he looks like as if its no big deal
So we took the ride together
He was smiling all the way
Aiman make so much noise
He has never been to the zoo before
Keep pointing to all the animals we see
Hehehe...cute lar
Some other updates over the weekends
Met Diana n bf for dinner on Sat
Accompany her shopping
While I do my retail therapy
I realise that the more I window-shop
More things I would be exposed to
All the more I want all these things for myself
Arggh...stress
Btw,
I want to go to enrique's consert!!!!
nuthin else matters... @ 11:58 PM ::
Friday, March 26, 2004
Came back juz in time to catch matt got voted off
Poor him
But then again someone has got to go
Got the letter from MOE
I didn't get in
I'm a bit disappointed
Coz I tawt everything goes on well
But still my unemployed status stays the same
And also relieved at the same time
Relieved that I dun have to do sumthing that I dun like
Ppl always say apply teaching as a last resort
Yes, thats what I am doing
I'm at wits end
So I applied
But didnt get in
Can't believe that I am so suey
Teaching also cannot get?
Nevermind this is not the end of the werld
I will try to look for other jobs
In the meantime
I will continue to do watever I'm doing now
Giving tuition, teaching enrichment course..
Or watever
nuthin else matters... @ 12:11 AM ::
Thursday, March 25, 2004
Juz finished watching the AI
Kinda disappointed with Jasmine's performance today
Fantasia n Latoya were juz as great
Who do u support?
Sigh, hopefully can reach home earlier tomorrow to watch the results
So tired, everyday got tuition
No more lazing at home watching tv in the evenings
No more going shopping, drinking coffee with girlfrens
The ironic part is that
More tuitions, lesser spendings
Should make me a rich lady by now
But why am I so broke?
Juz like how when I'm not werking?
Still no news from the MOE
Whether I get it or not
It doesn't matter
I juz dun like to kept in suspense for so long
I juz noticed that one of my poly/uni fren got in the miss universe competition
I didnt know ppl my age r still eligible to enter the competition
Tawt its open to girls below 20
Hmmm....
nuthin else matters... @ 12:16 AM ::
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Juz finished preparing stuffs for my enrichment class later today
Almost forgotten that my classes start this week, after 2 weeks break
Got a call from my tuition agency
They got an assignment few blocks away from my place
Why not? I thought...
Save bus fare summore
But then again
I am requested to teach Science, Maths and MALAY
Yes...Malay....to a malay student
Maths and science...no probs
But, how the hell do you tutor malay?
So I went to the Popular book store today
Look thru a malay text
Okaayy..
Still alrite I guess
But they seem to have change alot since my secondary school days
They have tatabahasa, kosa kata
What's kosa kata? Can someone explain that to me?
Cikgu Zaaiitooonn..I need help! *hehhe*
Then I need to get a malay assestment book for the student
Now then I realise there is no malay assestment book at popular
Went to 3 branches....still zilch
Where to get malay books??
Must go geylang izit?
Very well
My lesson with that student starts this thursday
Wish me luck
I will try my best
It shouldnt be so bad rite?
nuthin else matters... @ 2:18 AM ::
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Nanie send me this steamboat personality test...
I did it and the results....
TYPE B
You are a more active person, drawing a clear line
between happiness and unhappiness. You are more
quick-tempered. If you encounter things you like, you
will do it without second thought. But once you
encounter things that you hate, you will wish to get
out of it as soon as possible. As you are a person of
your own views, the friends you tend to have will be
of the same pattern. But once good friends, you will
understand them a lot and go all the way to help then.
Friends are very dependent on you. As you are too
emotional, you may make a storm out of a teacup with
your friends. You must learn to do things in order and
not give up easily. You can try making friends with
those you don't think you can get along with, don't
stick with the same category. This will make you more
popular and charming.
nuthin else matters... @ 1:03 PM ::
I have applied to teach last month
Went for the interview
Now waiting for the result
It has been 3 weeks
And still no news from them
I'm getting anxious waiting for the letter
That will change my unemployed status
Do I have what it takes to be a teacher?
I can't imagine myself being one
I can already hear some of my friends laffing their heads off at me
After what I have said about being one
But then again life has got to go on
Sometimes in reality we have got to sacrifice
Not sure to be happy or to sad if I get accepted
Happy coz finally I get to do sumthing
Sad because this is not what I dreamt of doing
More like a life-imprisonment for me
Actually I sometimes feel my whole life is like a joke
There is always someone who will decide things for me
What to do, what is right, what is wrong...
Sometimes its the circumstances that is making the decision for me
Is it fate?
All I could do is to follow whats best and whats appropriate at the mo
Sometimes I feel that I'm being forced to go thru what I go thru
All I do everyday is to defend these actions
Three of my cousins are going to uni later this yr
Happy for them
Hope they choose their majors wisely
Dun let other ppls' dreams influence your decision
But at the same time, have to realistic abt
What works in Singapore and whats not
Wishing u all the best!
nuthin else matters... @ 1:30 AM ::
Monday, March 22, 2004
My sickness is back again
The chronic after midnite thinking syndrome
Symptoms include insomnia, headache,
Depression and sudden urge to blog.
Not sure if there is a cure for it
To tell you the truth
I'm actually sick of staying at home
Sick of doing nuthing
I need to talk and communicate with normal ppl
Friends, colleagues, customers, patients...or watever
Staying at home makes me suffer from all sorts of chronic syndromes
I need a job badly
Not only for the money
But also
For the satistaction
For the independence
I want to able to
Buy my own furnitures
Buy presents on my loved ones' birthdays
Pay my own bills
Have own choice n preference on things
Use my brain more efficiently
I think thats the cause of my thinking syndrome
Coz I've been brain dead during the day
Hence it tries to pick up activity at night?
Is that possible?
I told ppl that I'm happy
To stay at home
To be able to take care of my kids
To cook and clean
Dun believe me coz its all bullshit
Deep down inside
God knows how miserable I feel
Been applying for so many jobs
Yet not even one return call
Do I have 'dun reply me' as my middle name or wat?
No doubt that I'm doing some part-time jobs
Like giving tuition and stuffs
I realise that I dun juz want any job..freelance or part-time..
I want a permanent, full-time job
Where
I'll be entitled to benefits and bonuses
I'll have a designation
I'll have my own desk n computer
So that I can put my family and kids photos
Am i asking too much?
I tawt last year was a bad year
Gonna be luckier this year
Sigh..I guess this year is not gonna be any better
nuthin else matters... @ 1:56 AM ::
Sunday, March 21, 2004
I'm back..
Very, very tired
It was fun though
But I will never go to one-day kinda trip ever again
Everything's rushing
Can't really enjoy things much
Especially when there are kids around
They get uncomfortable fast
But then again, kids are kids...watodo
We went to Tangkak, Bandar Hilir, Mahkota Parade, Medan ikan bakar all in one day
A bit too ambitious isn't it?
Can't complain..coz going on a package
But good la...get to rest n eat only hehe
Now at my in-law's place
Its raining heavily here
Hmm..still feeling very sleepy
All I do this weekend
Is eating n sleeping..
Nevermind
My action-packed days
Gonna starts tomorrow..
nuthin else matters... @ 6:32 PM ::
Friday, March 19, 2004
Haiz...
I had tuition today...
I had not seen this kid for a week plus as they went for short trip to KL during the week break
Guess what??
He had forgotten everything that I've tawt him!!
He had forgotten his fractions..whatz mixed numbers, watz improper fractions?
He had forgotten his times table 7 to 9!!
Arghh..
Wunder if any water had gone into his brain while he was having fun at Sunway Lagoon...
Stress!!
Now its time fer me to go on a trip...
Or else I'll go bonkers
I'm going to malacca tomorrow
Its juz a one-day trip
To relax n eat
And eat...
And relax
And eat hehhe...
Will be back to update on Sunday
Tata peeps~
nuthin else matters... @ 3:10 PM ::
Thursday, March 18, 2004
I was talking to a fren juz the other day
And our conversation inspire this thought
I dunno why
But in this world
In one way or another
We will try to do things that will please others
But not yourself
You might say
I dun care what people think of me
I will juz say or do watever I like
Is that true?
Do you still feel the same way deep down inside?
But humans are still humans
Will they ever be satisfied?
Be happy and keep quiet?
I bet they will never will
I might think that if I mind my own business
And dun disturb people
Then others will stop being critical towards you
So wrong it seems
Its even sad when they are who u regard as your friends
What is wrong with me in their eyes?
Sometimes
Because of what others said
Mebbe they think they are helping
Mebbe they think they are smart
Mebbe they wasnt even thinking when they said whatever they said
It makes me sad
It makes me ponder
Like what my couz said
Its ok to be simple
Its ok not to able to travel all ard the world
Its ok not to be rich
Its ok not to be pretty
Its ok not to have Louis Vuitton bag
Its ok not to have big car n house
I'm happy with that
Can you?
nuthin else matters... @ 11:35 PM ::
Yayyyyy!!!!
Finally the day is here
The day when I dun have tuitions
The day when I can do my own things
Like cleaning up the house
Or go to the market
Or bring the kids out
But guess what
I've not done any of the above-mentioned
Hehehhe
Just too lazy I guess
Just wanna relax
Without having to rush to here and there
But I'm having my arabic classes later tonite
I enjoyed the classes very much
But I need to revise more
To be more interactive in class
Ok..thats what I need to be doing today
Revise arabic, revise arabic, revise arabic
Be back later peeps...
nuthin else matters... @ 12:19 PM ::
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
As usual today I had tuitions in the morning today
Its the same guy who has thousands of reasons for not doing my homeworks
Surprisingly, he did my homework today
And he can do his algebra without much assistance from me!
A week break can really make a difference on his work performance
Keep it up! n hopefully it stays that way too..
After my tuition I went to couz's place
Accompany her to Alexandra hospital to have her stitches removed
Very brave of her, she had all 4 of the wisdom teeth removed last week
And her cheeks puffed up like nobody's business hehehe
*she called herself tweety bird*
Since we are so near Ikea, we had our dinner there
We had poached salmon
*yummy*
Almost forgotten how it tasted like
Still.. very heavenly
Used to be my fave once, when I was still in uni
Tired...time to sleep
Another early day tomorrow
Gotta meet my students n see how their corn plants are doing..
Hopefully they didnt die after a few days break
Btw, I eat a lot today..had a breakfast, double lunch n dinner n etc, etc..heheh
nuthin else matters... @ 11:57 AM ::
Monday, March 15, 2004
Beginning of the week..as usual..I have to go for tuitions again
But..since its the holiday week...I cramped all my tuitions in the morning n afternoon
Leaving my evening free...for some rest n relax
Kinda happy today
Good ar...nowadays happy mood onli..
I went to Orchard alone juz now
Guess what I did?
I permed my hair!
yeah...yeah....what did u say? itchy izzit?
Sekejap nak rebond..dah rebond nak perm..hehe
What to do...
I'm sick of my straight hair
And as my natural curls has start to come out...might as well perm the rest
A few hours away from the kids is good
Makes me miss them
Makes me wanna come home to them
I met my good fren Diana
And we had dinner at Long John's Silver
*reminds me of freon ehhe*
Girls always need girlfrens
Need one in all the good times and the bad times
Being alone with another girl makes you feel young and carefree
Makes you want to talk, laugh, tell stories, sing song all at the same
That's why with a good friend, a cup of coffee can last a long way.
I bought a lilac hair clip, an eyeliner and a girly top, all in less than $20
Isn't that great? Cheap thrill...
See what I mean?
U can only do this when you are with a GIRLFRIEND.
You will always need one even though how much you try to deny it.
nuthin else matters... @ 11:50 PM ::
Sunday, March 14, 2004
I went to my Uncle Zain's place today....to celebrate mamat's advance birthday...
Another high calories weekend....full of nasi kuning, lauk korma, chicken wings, cakes n kuehs..
I bet I can put on weight this month
Happy.
I enjoy family gatherings a lot nowadays...dunno why..
Gave mamat a Kinokuniya voucher...
Wanted to get him a book but not sure what he likes...
Guess a voucher would be a better choice
Thanks Uncle Zain & Auntie Ainee....for the good food hehe
Happy 13th Birthday Mamat
The foods *Courtesy of Auntie Ainee*
Mamat blowing candles
Uncle Zain with Hazim, Syafiq, Aishah and Prince Charles
nuthin else matters... @ 11:05 PM ::
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Good afternoon ppls...
I woke up at abt 10am today...and discovered that I'm all alone at home
My hubby has gone to work...my parents went to the market and brought Aiman along..
Syafiq is at my in-law's place...
Haiizz...
Feel kinda weird
Usually, I'll be very busy in the morning...bathing the kids, prep breakfasts fer them, clean up the hse, get groceries for cooking...and today I am all alone with nothing to do..
Waiting for everybody to come back....then we gonna have an action-packed day today..
Here's my to do list for the day
1. Fetch Syafiq.
2. Look for a present for baby and my couz.
3. A wedding.
4. A cukur rambut lepas asar.
5. Visit another fren who had juz delivered.
Feeling kinda happy today, not sure why...
nuthin else matters... @ 12:00 PM ::
What's in a name?
Do you like the name given to you?
Well...I dun really like mine...because of the Zu....making me last on the class register everywhere I go, classmates make fun of my name...calling me Zoological Gardens n stuffs...
To my close frens, relatives and family...I'm known as Ida
Juz now, I bummed into an old poly fren...and she called out...'eh zu...'
Grrrrr
Actually I never like ppl calling me Zu, but watodo...to every school I went to, there will be another Ida around...and that person will be called Ida while I'll be downgraded to Zu..
Still...Zu sounds much better than any other names or nicknames I was called as a kid....Zura, Zurai and other God knows wat...
One of my tuition kid has a similar name as mine....with a difference in one alpha...
I called her by her full name...who knows she's facing same prob as me
Another thing, some ppl have the same name, rite?
I find it very weird calling out my name...if that person share the same name..
Especially when talking on the phone or sumthing...
Me: Hi Ida..its me Ida *weird*
Ida: Hey..Ida...how have u been?...blah, blah, blah
Me: Yes Ida...yada, yada yada
Get my drift?
nuthin else matters... @ 1:18 AM ::
Friday, March 12, 2004
I juz came back from my tuitions..thats it for this week...
My tuition kids are amazingly well-behaved today
Mebbe its the holiday mood...
Looking forward to the tuition-free weekends
But can't rest n relax either
Have weddings, birthday party, cukur rambut to attend
Not a chance to bring my kids to the zoo
Mebbe will try to make it up next weekend
nuthin else matters... @ 10:42 PM ::
Guess what I did yesterday as I can't sleep?
Get my blog a new skin ... :)
I spent the next one hr or so editing the colours and font style, filling in my details...
I find that my previous skin was a bit dull...and had a sad look....
This suits my personality better
With the combi of my fave colours.....pink and lilac...kind of perk me up everytime I take a look at it..
What do you guys think?
I finally fall asleep at 4am, feeling rather satisfied..
nuthin else matters... @ 1:54 PM ::
Was talking to my cousin just now...
Talking about how some of us have drifted apart
I really wish to be friends with them
Friends like how bestfriends could be
We can be like sisters with strangers
Why not with cousins?
Those whom we grew up with..
Is being shy a good reason?
Or is it becoz we are family,
They will always be there
That we dun have to care?
Mebbe they dun see the need of this bond the way I do
They have siblings, while I don't
They have people who look like them...around them, while I don't
I still question my origin
The question that no one have the answer
I'm like the odd one out, the outcast, the fifth wheel or the unwanted shoe
Maybe that is why...I can never fit in
nuthin else matters... @ 3:11 AM ::
It's almost 3am....and I still can't seem to sleep
Been thinking alot...thats the thing I hate about not being able to sleep...
When you can't sleep...you toss and turn...
And as you do that in the dark, quiet moment
Your brain, instead of switching off..
Starts to pick up speed...and think of all the unthinkable things...
Things that you don't have time to think about during the day, during the rush hour to and fro work...
And as I ponder on watever issues....I get emotional...
Do you people experience that? or is it juz me...
I guess its juz me...
nuthin else matters... @ 2:49 AM ::
Thursday, March 11, 2004
hiazz.....its raining again...a gd day to sleep...*imagining my cosy bed, n comforter*
The rain decided to pour not when I'm still in bed....
But when I'm about to go out to the market...after I've both kids all ready to go....
So what am I gonna do now? Hmm...gotta to explain to Syafiq why we are not going out after he has worn his nice clothes n shoes...
Hmmm...how abt lunch? i have nuthing in the fridge man..
Ok never mind....lets juz sit back n relax....here I am blogging...
While waiting for the rain to stop....
nuthin else matters... @ 1:23 PM ::
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Something has left my life
And I don't know where it went to
Somebody caused me strife
And it's not what I was seeking
Didnt you see me, didnt you hear me
Didnt you see me standing there
Why did you turn out the lights
Did you know that I was sleeping
Say a prayer for me
Help me to feel the strength I did
My identity has it been taken
Is my heart breaking on me
All my plans fell through my hands
They fell
Through my hands on me
All my dreams it suddenly seems
Empty...
The Cranberries (1994)
nuthin else matters... @ 2:18 AM ::
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Back to reality today...no more lazing around..no more swimming and having fun...gotta work baby...
Went for my tuition today...not really in the mood to teach actually....but watodo..this is life...got bills to pay, kids to feed...
anyway, dunno why my mood is getting terrible by the day...must be the rain I guess...my tuition kid is not helping too....still coming up with all sorts of reasons for not doing the homework I gave him. Last week, he said he had done it and place it on the table...but it went missing the moment I came..unbelievable rite..yeah I know..
This week, he claimed that someone stole his pencil case and he ran out of full-scap paper...shheeshh...thats it!...I blew up...gave him some thrashing...and there he was, still trying to argue...saying that he is not making it up...
Well, enuff of him....after my tuition, I went window-shopping at causeway point...I juz need to spend money. Thats the thing with me...I cant seem to be able to control spending money...whenever I'm stress I'll spend, when I'm sick, I'll spend...sad also spend, happy also spend....see? I juz need any reason to spend...
And now that I'm giving tuition, my stress level increases..so is my spending...
OK...so what have I bought...shampoo, conditioner, well..thats essential..I need to wash my hair..., some undies, a top, a shawl, a cd and a pair of earrings....hmmm...a bit too much for today....hmmm.....blame my tuition kid...who ask him to irritate the hell out of me heh heh heh....
wateva~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE ZAIN!!!
nuthin else matters... @ 11:29 PM ::
Monday, March 08, 2004
I woke up early today, feeling slightly cheerful, as I'm going swimming with my baby. Somehow, my mood got dampened by the rain by noon....the rain juz refused to stop!!...spoiling my whole plan for today.
Its alrite i thought...it will stop later on...so i packed my bag, dress him up n went back to my couzy's chalet.
We managed to get a dip at the pool in between the intermittent rain....but gave up after 3 tries. I juz have to accept the fact that the rain is never gonna stop...well at least fer today...
What actually makes my day today....was to see my baby so happy..swimming in the pool....seeing the joy on the kids' faces instantly cheer me up...whats more...I got to spend some quality time with my 2 cousins...doing things that we thought we couldnt do anymore...
Thanx guys...minus the rain....everything is perfect today...
nuthin else matters... @ 11:00 PM ::
March is an important mth fer me...no, its not my birthday....but I happen to have loads of relatives having birthdays this mth.
Today, my couz had a BBQ to celebrate her 24th birthday. Wow, she is 24 already....always sees her as the little couz amg us. It has been quite a while since the last time all the cousins get together. All grown up....everybody is so busy with their career, family and kids....forgetting how great it was..when we were kids ourselves. We had so much innocent fun, we were so close...regardless of age gap...have been frens since God knows when...
Now...sigh....sad to know that some of us had drifted apart....or chose to do so...
Drifted apart so much that they dun even acknowledge when bummed into each other..
I guess its inevitable..people change...maybe the circumstances make them change....
Whatever it is...I wish them well in watever they do..
HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY WATI
nuthin else matters... @ 2:54 AM ::
Saturday, March 06, 2004
I am having Aiman's 1st birthday party today. Its also my cuzz Watie and Haqim's birthdays too...
I have been bz preparing for his party the whole week. Went to market, prep goodies bags, search for the birthday suit, clean up the house, rearranging furnitures...all done by myself...
This morning itself...me and my mum bertungkus lumus prepare food for the guests....I prepared the nasi goreng ayam n fried spaghetti.....while my mum marinate the chic wings, n do all the frying of the finger foods.
No one came to help us....I dun blame anybody, as everybody have their own commitments...friends, cousins...all working in the morning..can only come later. If only my bestfren is around...I believe she will be the first one to come n help...too bad she is miles away ..
Or mebbe its me, juz my luck... coz this kinda thing always happens to me...Its funny how whenever others ask fer help...I will be eager to help..and always free to help...when its my turn....no one will be there for me...
Anyways...I'm proud to say that I managed to get everything done all by myself...no maids, no extra help needed...
End of the day, I'm quite happy....happy that everything turns out well....the party is a success..Little aiman's happy..thats all I care about..
He received some presents, not many but enuff to make him smile ear to ear the whole day...
He might not know, he might not understand....
But one day he will....as he flip through his photo album...
Thanx everybody for coming..
Thanx Auntie Pah for the birthday cake...
HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY AIMAN
nuthin else matters... @ 11:52 PM ::
