Monday, August 29, 2005

Seriously speaking...
I'm sick of my blog
All these moody entries
Turning me into a whiny bitch
Is getting on me

Mebbe I shouldn't even bother updating
Coz no one would be interested anyway..

What should I say?
My weekends are forever so typical
That you could memorise the events
Forward and backward
Anytime

My weekdays?
Werst...
I dun even wanna start

And as for today
I started my monday
Without much sleep last nite
First of all, both my boys r sick

Syafiq's school has some cases of HFMD
Been werried sick abt it for a week
Not wanting to sound like a over-reacting parent
I tried to keep calm
Ikut style org melayu
Takyah cakap2...nanti malu
Takyah heboh2..nanti org panic

And with the flu bug going on
I'm juz being a mum trying to protect my kids
From unnecessary infections
That could mean missed schools, excursion, test n so on

And guess wat?
Syafiq is down with another attack of bad asthma
Dunno wat trigger it
Must be those stupid ashes

He is supposed to be going on a trip to the zoo
Poor him n now he missed it
I can bring him to the zoo a million times
But nuthing can replace what he had missed
Being independent..
Looking at those animals with his friends..
Get involved in the zoo discussion
When they talk abt it in class..

And Aiman down with chicken pox
Chicken pox?
I werry abt HFMD
Mana plak datang si chicken pox ni?

nuthin else matters... @ 11:03 PM ::

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

I'm starting to get backaches again
It never fails to return for every pregnancies
Getting earlier as the birth order increases

I'm starting to get sick of these all
Being preggy...
Having ur tummy or ur weight commented everywher u go
People keep asking u whether its a boy or a girl
Thats all they care about
Not about ur health n well-being
I can't sleep properly at night
I'm only approaching 7 mths and I'm feeling this way already
Sigh

Oh another thing
I hated those stares I usually get from makciks2 I bump on the street
Thinking that I'm some pregnant kiddo
I can't help it that I'm petite
Urgh

nuthin else matters... @ 12:49 PM ::

Sunday, August 21, 2005

I had promised the boys that I would bring them to the beach today
I've always look forward to sundays
Especially a sunday like this
Where I dun have any tuitions or weddings to attend
I can wake up late...lazing ard anywhere at home
After tidying my house
And when we are about to get ready to go to the beach
Hubby got called to go to work
Coincidentally, his cuzzies also had the same plan in mind
In fact they r already at Pasir Ris beach

So ape lagi...
I juz join them la
Heheh
Kids meet kids
Mothers meet mothers..
Endless playtime
Non-stop gossips

Back at home b4 maghrib
Kids are tired n r all asleep
After their bath
With that satisfied looks on their faces
Makes me realised
How easy it is to please them at times
They dun actually ask for much
Juz a little bit of the parents time n attention
Effortless n rather cheap trip to the beach
Really make their day
And also mine too
:)

nuthin else matters... @ 7:55 PM ::

Thursday, August 18, 2005

This song was played at my friend's wedding last sunday
'Nur nilam sari' is the name
Sung by Awie while he was with Search
Dunno why it is still stuck in my head till today
Yeah.. its a bit kental and old..but its classic isn't it hehe

Such a nice song
With meaningful lyrics
Well...anything from M.Nasir is always is...

I especially like this part..

"...Senyumanmu satu azimat
Buat diriku yang hina
Manusia terpinggir melara
Tak pernah kenal erti bahagia
Namun ku masih gembira
Bagiku rahmat semuanya..."

nuthin else matters... @ 3:07 PM ::

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

My school is cancelled today..Hurray!!

Pregnancy-wise..everything is ok
This baby is rather quiet
Felt guilty that I didn't concentrate much on this pregnancy
Like how I did for my previous pregnancies

Hence, I've decided to continue my tuitions till all my students finished their exams
If no complication or watsoever beyond my capabilities crop up
I guess it is better that way..since I'm not sure what's in store for me next year
Not sure if I wanna still go around giving home tuitions
Or operate from home instead
Or work full-time and quit tuitions totally

Giving tuitions have its ups n downs
I enjoyed the flexibility
I can be with my kids in the morning
I can take up juz a few students or a lot more
Depending on how much I intend to make that month

But I've got no mcs, leaves or maternity leaves or watsoever
Watever breaks I intend to take would be at my own expenses
And I'm not around for my family every weekday evening
No more having dinners with my family
Sometimes I even have to forego my weekends to fit their schedules
Plus I've to put up with watever nonsenses these students have every now and then

Lastly, no one would consider this as a job
No one sees it as sumthing I do to earn a living
When someone on a shift work has to work on sunday nite
Its ok coz its his job
When I have tuitions scheduled at some ungodly hours
People giving me kesian look
Or ask me to cancel tuitions to accomodate to theirs

I wouldnt say I dun enjoy wat I do
Coz there are times when I juz love it
But juz like any other jobs
There is always sumthing sickening abt it
That u have juz gotta endure

nuthin else matters... @ 11:47 AM ::

Saturday, August 13, 2005

I feel like eating chocolate almost every day nowadays
Especially toblerone
I need at least 3 small bars daily
Yesterday, I ran out of chocolates in my fridge
And hubby got me a massive 400g toblerone
Well...this could keep me smiling for a few days at least heh

nuthin else matters... @ 4:55 PM ::

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Thursday was supposed to be my rest day..
After such a hectic wednesday. *even though yesterday wasn't so bad*
But due to many tuition cancellations over the national day week
I have make-up lessons today

But it seems like they r either in holiday mood
Or Mid-term lazy mood
They dun want the make-up lessons
Hence here I am again
Another free day at home
Another free day with my boys

I was also thinking of taking a break a mth earlier than planned
Dilemma..dilemma
And not sure if I wanna resume tuitions next jan...
Or should I take 6 mths break?
Too many things on my mind
Endless worries and uncertainties
Is that what happen when you are expecting 3rd kid?

The funny thing is that
The topic "It is wasted that I dun work full-time since I'm a grad"
Had resurfaced
Can't you see the condition I am in?
Is that what I am supposed to be werried abt now?
People's words sumtimes makes me wanna laugh n cry at the same time



Looks like I can foresee another payless mth...sigh

nuthin else matters... @ 6:23 PM ::

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

As early as 7am, my 2 boys had climbed up our bed
To wake us up...and said, "Mama, papa, cepat bangun...kata nak pergi jalan-jalan?"
Thats what happen if you make promises to kids
They get over-excited and make sure you keep your promise

We started our day around noon
Went to my in-law's place for lunch
After a bit of RnR
We made our way down to town
Parked at Somerset
We walked around town for awhile
As usual, the boys wanted to go Toys 'R' Us
After which we took the train to City Hall
At first we wanted to go to Esplanade
But decided to station ourselves at Marina Square instead
Went to Giant to get some tidbits
Macam nak tengok apa aje..
Everywhere from the mrt station itself
To Marina Sq, Suntec City, Esplanade
Crowds of people in reds n whites
Flocking around every corner

We waited for abt an hour plus for the Grand Finale
Or the most anticipated part of the parade itself
Fireworks!
It was truly spectacular
To see it upclose
To see it with your loved ones
The smile and joy on the kids' faces
Priceless

A tiresome trip as it is seen to some people
Is really satisfying for me
As I've truly enjoyed myself

After the parade has ended
We had supper near our place
A day is never complete without one
Pratas, mee goreng mamak and teh tarik to end the day
What more can I say!


Me and Syafiq


Fireworks

More pics at my multiply

nuthin else matters... @ 11:13 AM ::

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Was out with hubby and Aiman yesterday
Syafiq didn't wanna follow coz he wanted to stay at my in-laws place
I missed my good old comfy jeans so much
Looking ard for a comfy denim maternity pants/jeans
Can't seem to find one...
Most maternity clothes are dowdy n ugly
I will never be caught dead wearing those yucky nyonya tops n dresses
And the gorgeous ones come with a price
Which is not werth it
Giving the amount of time I would actually spent wearing
Juz another 3 mths or so
After 4 maternity shops...n heat exhaustion
I finally found the perfect pair :)

And today, we are going to my in-laws place as usual
I was thinking of wat simple dish or kueh to prepare
Since I'm expecting a tuition in the morning
I wouldn't have time to prepare an elaborated one
And guess wat...it is cancelled again
My students are all on national day mood
Fine enuff for me...As I wanted the rest
Hence another free day for me...yayy!!
*come to think of it...this will go on n on till wednesday if I'm lucky...heh*
Good thing n bad thing
Good since I can rest as much
Bad coz I will have to expect a late pay..which is undesirable..
Decided to make coconut blossoms at last
First of all bcoz I feel like eating them
The durian-flavoured ones..heh


My ingredients


The torture of having to put in bit by bit into those small cups


The results..150 perfect coconut blossoms for me and family

nuthin else matters... @ 11:25 PM ::

Friday, August 05, 2005

Time check...its 4.15pm
And where am I?
I'm still at home!
Do I have tuitions today?
NO..none at all heehhehe

See how a day makes all the difference?

So what have I been doing?
I've been cleaning my house
Helping my boys to do some drawings..
Simple homely things
That made my day today
It's a sheer bliss...

I will be going out again today
Yipeee...

Shall I catch a show today?
Charlie n the chocolate factory mebbe?

nuthin else matters... @ 4:20 PM ::

Thursday, August 04, 2005

I have not been going out for quite a while now
Call me anti-social...but my working hours sucks big time..watodo
At last..due to a cancelled tuition...
I managed to be at a shopping centre while it is still open
With many people around
Eating dinner at its proper time like everybody else

Time is short
But I appreciated it nonetheless
Didn't get to buy what I've been looking for
But its ok..
Coz I've grant myself another 2 days 'leave'Heh


Choosing my gelato flavours....dessert is a must!


Us at Marina Square

To be continued....

nuthin else matters... @ 11:55 PM ::

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

I was having bad feelings when I woke up this morning
But I tried to brush it aside
Thinking that its juz a stereotype thinking
Had a wholesome breakfast of banana and oatmeal to start the day
Mood is quite ok

But as I was about to leave for school at ard 12 noon
It started raining
A real heavy downpour
With strong wind
How the hell am I suppose to be in punggol with all those worksheets?
I dun have any choice but to call for a cab
Ended up paying $6 for a trip which otherwise could be free if I had walked..
Or at the most cost me 60 cents if I were to take a bus

The best part is that...it stops raining when I reach the school
My class was so noisy and super lazy today
They had their BCG injections today
Hence, kononnya tangan sakit, cannot write!
Duh!
I chit-chat with them for a bit
And realised that the whole class has no respects for their teachers
One boy even said, respect them for wat? they teach us oni wat..at the most scold oni..scared oso for wat???
Sad eh?

After school, I have 4 students for tuitions today
And only 1 behaved well
I dunno wat happen to the other 3
Not focused at all
Doing things wrong and keep forgetting things
Thats it!..Argghhhh!!!!!

All I can say to all of u
I'm trying hard to help u with ur studies
And if u can't be bothered with them
So be it
I'm sick n tired
Its not like as if I'm the one sitting for the exams
I've gotten what I've wanted in my studies..
Yours... is none of my business

Instead of spending quality time with my kids
I spend all my time to help u
Seems like its juz a waste of time
Coz I'm not being appreciated at all

I'm going to take a break from tomorrow onwards
I badly in need of retail therapy

nuthin else matters... @ 10:56 PM ::

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Tired.
Sleepy.
Frustrated.
Almost sick.

That's how I feel last weekend..
Syafiq was sick.
The mothers out ther..shld know how it is when ur baby got sick
The sleepless nights n stuffs
And werst..
I was having tuitions straight on both sat n sun
I badly need a day wher I dun have to do anything at all...

And I almost ended getting sick again this monday...
Tapi tak menjadi.....selamats
I can't afford to get sick sooo often..
Coz I'll go bonkers when come to replacing my missed tuitions...

Today, I had waffles at Gelare :)
Sumthing to perk me up
After such a tiring, moody week

Hopefully my wednesday gonna be a smooth one
I can't take any more frustrations at the moment
Or I'll become bitter n unfriendly next...

Looking forward to national day...
I badly need to rest!

nuthin else matters... @ 11:44 PM ::