Tuesday, August 31, 2004
To all the teachers who have taught me
Throughout my life
U did make a difference in my life
Mrs Tan, who tawt me in pri 1
I remembered her being such a fierce teacher
Who had her eyes fixed on a few of us
Waiting to shout at the slightest misbehaving
Then there was Miss Salma, Miss Radha
And so many others
The malay teachers of BTPS
Cikgu Rahim, Cikgu Sutrisno
Malay lessons whould never be the same w/o them
In SHSS..
Thank you Mrs Chia
For telling me that I dun deserved to be in your class
Motivating me to prove myself all the more
Thank you Mrs Wong
You are the best Maths teacher I could ever had
Additional Maths was easier becoz of u
Dedication means a lot to u
Sumthing that is absent in many teachers nowadays
Cikgu Zaiton,
Who called us monyets and beruks
Hehehe
In Singapore Polytechnic..
Who could ever forget Mr Lim Yok Seng and Mr Adrian Yeo
They are more like friends than lecturers
And also to all my professors in NUS
Thank you
I went to a school today...
To do my enrichment course
Some students wished me Happy Teacher's Day
When I went for tuitions,
My tuitees wished me as well
I guess this is the time
When you will feel great sense of fulfillment
Even though what you did wasnt that much
It was much appreciated nonetheless
nuthin else matters... @ 10:42 AM ::
Friday, August 27, 2004
Its hubby's birthday today
Happy 31st Birthday darling
He took leave since thursday
He deserved some break on his special day
Anyways he was forced to take leave coz he has not cleared his last yr's leave
He still have 14 days of last yr's n 28 days of this yr's untouched
Cant imagine to have so much leave days n not using them
Last yr I cooked a wholesome dinner for him
All his favourite dishes
Invited my in-laws to our little home
His sis bought him a cake n all
Tot of doing the same today
But I realised that I dun have much time n energy left after school
So we eat out
Not bad...
For once I get to relax :)
nuthin else matters... @ 11:30 PM ::
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Times starting to move fast
Esp when u r bz n have loads of deadlines to meet
Dun you juz wished that we have more than 24 hrs a day?
Or more than 7 days a week?
We can never have enuff time
Juz nice for everything to fall in place
Most schools are having CA2 this week
My P6 student is having his prelims
Good thing that most of my enrichment classes were put on hold
But on the other hand, I have to have xtra lessons
For my tuitees, to satisfy werried parents
Actually I really dun understand
Why must they have tuitions a day b4 their papers?
They should be all prepared or studying on their own
Better still...sleep early...have all the rest they need
Whenever I said I cant make it for tuitions
Students get all werried...saying that they will fail and all
Haiz~
Oh yeah...I went for this interview the other day
The interviewer was nice...kinda talkative
But in a nice way
Filling me in with lots of info abt the company and stuffs
I didnt get the chance to talk much
Dunno whether good or bad
And they have weird werking hours
Hmm..not sure abt it..
Dunno if I can get the job or not in the first place
Neways...hubby's bday coming this friday
Dunno what I shld get for him
Tawt of treating him to a weekend getaway
But he's not that keen this week..
Mebbe next week or wat...
nuthin else matters... @ 1:15 AM ::
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Ahaks!
What a title
...*chuckles*
A bit jiwangzz
It all started out from my relaxing weekends
With nuthing to do....excluding the norms
Tuitions, going to in-laws place n stuffs
Well...for those ppl who knew me well
They know that i'm not the type who can duduk diam2
I will feel weird if I'm not doing sumthing
So I started digging out old cds
Clearing my store of some clutters
I realised that i still have some unopened boxes in there
Eversince I shifted here 3 years ago
I can live without those stuffs for 3 years..
So its time for it to go i guess
Threw away some notes n books
I still have my secondary sch texts mind u
Packed some notes for my couz
Anyway, ju..I can't find that
slenge pic of the 4 musketeers lah!
Ntah mana ntah dah pegi
Selamats~...hehehe
Then I found some old malay cds
That hubby had dug out from dunno where the other day
Mostly from the 80s
A reminiscent of my primary school days
Sweet memories of the young n innocence
How much kids have changed now
Mebbe they grew up too fast nowadays
Anyway I like this song alot then
Along with some others
Lemme dig out summore first k
Demi Cinta Setia -Junction
Demi cinta ku akan setia
Padamu ingin bersama
Kemana saja
Tapi syang kau pergi
Tanpa relaku sedang cinta
Ku masih membara
Telah aku membalut luka
Hatiku tapi lukaku masih berdarah
Puas aku cuba untuk
Melupakanmu tapi
Ternyataku tidak berdaya
Biar ku tanggung segala
Derita demi cinta aku yang
Setia siang malam ku
Merindu-rindu kepada mu
Kenangan pun menjelma
Dalam hati ku menahan
Kedukaan bibir tersenyum
Hati menangis
Oh kekasih mungkin
Engkau sedang bahagia
Setelah cintaku engkau
Menghancurkan
nuthin else matters... @ 9:42 AM ::
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Aiman had his herniotomy done today
We reached the hospital at abt 8am.
By the time we finished registration, changing n stuffs, it was 9am.
I accompanied him in the OT till he's asleep
By 10.30am it was all done.
He was still asleep till abt 12pm
He woke up feeling groggy
But the first thing he look for when he opened his eyes...
Were his milkbottle n favourite pillow
He recovered fast
Totally oblivious of what's happening
I dun think he even felt anything
As he wasn't bothered by the plaster on his tummy
He was the happiest n noisiest baby in the recovery ward
By 2pm, he has changed to his normal clothes
And all ready to go home
Special thanks to Day Surgery Centre
Especially the team of doctors and nurses working this morning
I'm sure aiman enjoyed his 6 hrs stay there
All he can remember were the toys n books everywhere
Friendly nurses n doctors who played bubbles with him
nuthin else matters... @ 10:02 PM ::
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
I told ya I've got no school this week rite?
Mebbe I said it too fast
I feel like I have been a cold-blooded animal
In a low temperature condition, for the past few days
Sluggish, lazy, inactive and sleepy
Hehhehe
I even get to meet Nanie for dinner and coffee yesterday
Isn't that awesome?
Then my boss called me yesterday
Asking me to stand in for a class
In that sickening school again
But its ok, its juz for this once
And I've got planting in my another school
On both thur n fri
Hmm..Sounds alrite I guess
I only have to work for 3 days..
Then the weekends will be back again
Thinking of bringing my boys to the Wild Wild Wet
Special treat for Aiman
As he is going for a herniotomy next wednesday
nuthin else matters... @ 11:38 AM ::
Monday, August 09, 2004
Happy National Day peeps!
I like public holidays
It gives me an xtra day to rest
Sat and sun are never enuff
So much things to catch up
Becoz of this long weekend
I managed to clean up my house
Wash clothes
Spend time with kids
Go out, watch movie with hubby
Sleep, sleep and sleep
I look forward to this week so much
Not only becoz I'm fully recharged
I also dun have to work so much
Most tuitions cancelled or postponed
My most sickening school has ended last week
And now I'm left with only 1 school
Could never been happier
Thank you Singapore
nuthin else matters... @ 11:31 PM ::
Sunday, August 08, 2004
As you all can see, I'm in the middle of some soul-searching
Hope to be able to understand myself and forgive myself
Hence, hopefully becoming more prosperous
Been reading a lot of those self-help books
Wataver you wanna say about those books, so be it
They have help me a lot for the last few weeks
I feel so much better
I can feel myself gaining vigour
I believe I have been working so hard..
Thinking so much..
Sparing no time n thoughts for myself
What I really feel, what I really want
I've been driven by people's thought
Preoccupied by what people gotta say
They can think and say whatever they want
They do that for a reason
Could b anything
And I can't stop that, so be it.
My worries..
I tend to make such a big deal out of it
That I forgot all the good things that has happen to me
Been taking things for granted
I am frustrated with the situation that I have 2 young kids
Forgetting that I'm blessed with 2 boys...some ppl can't even have kids
My husband and my family
They have been great
Supporting me and believing in me through everything
Never thanked them enuff for wat they have done
Only to remember their flaws everytime
My house, ppl says its too small
It is small and cosy
Because thats way I like it to be
It keeps me from rain n shine every single day
Keeps me safe and secured
And the best thing is
It is mine
Thats all that matters
My part-time job
I have the pleasure to work as and when I like
So that I can still spend enough time with my kids
This is how my life is predestined to be
God has not given me this opportunity for a reason
It is juz not my time yet
You know..
Things always look different from the outside
Some people can shone brightly
Look confident with high flying job and all
But deep down inside..
All you can see is someone who is 'weak'
Yearning for love, family or kids
There are very few moments in life when you see yourself for what you are
Not how you'd like it to be
Or how you think other people see you
Trust me
These moments are very sobering
I guess...thats the way it is
You win some, you lose some
nuthin else matters... @ 12:59 AM ::
Saturday, August 07, 2004
Everyone of us goes through times when life seems extremely difficult - we are left alone, we can't pay bills, we have lost our job, we have lost a loved one. At these times we wonder how qw will possibly make it through the next week. Somehow we usually do.
It is possible to lose our perspective, and to paint the picture gloomier that it really is. We look forward a future which seems to be a minefield of problems and wonder how human could cope with what we face.
A person embarking on a day's march would be foolish to carry enough provisions for a lifetime. Is it not strange, then, that many people carry around all their worries for the next twenty years and wonder life is so difficult? We were designed to live twenty-four hours a day at a time. No more. It is pointless worrying about tomorrow's problems today.
Next time you find yourself feeling despair, ask yourself - Have I got enough air to breathe? Have I enough food for today? We often overlook the fact that our most important things are being met.
Have you ever noticed that you can lose a week's sleep over something that your friends would never give a second thought? That is often because we take ourselves too seriously. We figure the whole world is watching. It is not. And so what if it is? No doubt you are living your life the best way you know how.
nuthin else matters... @ 10:13 PM ::
Friday, August 06, 2004
The decision to forgive yourself or somebody else is to vote to live in the present moment. If we refuse to forgive somebody, then we are saying "instead of taking some action to improve matters, I prefer to live in the past, and blame somebody for it ( or blame myself)"
Some people might say " I can forgive you, but I can't forget". Which actually means "I'll forgive you a little bit, but I wanna hang on to some of this stuff just in case it is convenient to remind you about it later". Real forgiveness is letting go.
It is important to realise we all llive our lives the best way we know how. We make lots of mistakes along the way, sometimes we act on misinformations, sometimes we do stupid things, yet we are still doing it the best we know how. Nobody opens his eyes the moment he is born and thinks "Great! Here is my big chance to go out and screw up my life!"
Blaming others gets us nowhere. If something is done, it is done. Griping about it changes nothing. Blaming the weather never helped anybody. The same goes for blaming other people. When we choose to forgive, a marvellous principle comes into operation. As we change. others change. As we alter our attitude towards others, they begin to alter their behaviour. Somehow the moment we choose to change the way we see things, others respond to our changed expectations.
nuthin else matters... @ 9:29 PM ::
Thursday, August 05, 2004
One of the beautiful things about young children is that they absorb themselves totally in the present moment. They manage to stay totally involved in whatever they are doing, whether it be watching a beetle, drawing a picture, building a sandcastle or whatever else they choose to devote all the energies to.
As we become adults, many of us learn the art of thinking about and worrying about several things at once. We allow the past problems and future concerns to crowd into our present such that we become miserable and ineffective.
We also learn to postpone our pleasures and happiness, often developing the notion hoping that sometime in future everything will be much better than it is now.
If thats the case, happiness will never come and we will die still being unhappy.
nuthin else matters... @ 10:23 PM ::
