Sunday, July 25, 2004
I didnt go out with friends this weekend
Instead, I spend it with my family
I went to my uncle's place for a kenduri yesterday
Met up with some cousins
All so grown up
Make me realise that I'm so blardee old
3 of them are starting university soon
Happy for them
Then today, I went to visit my in-laws
Doing the usual weekly thing
Yest, b4 the kenduri, I went to Arab st
To look ard for some nice fabric
I'm panicking already
July is ending...
That means Ramadhan is juz 2 mths away
I've got no baju yet
I've already decided not to do so many things this yr
Mebbe I'll juz make a few kuehs and cook for pagi raya's dishes
I'm not going to sew anything this year
No new curtains for my hse this yr I suppose
Moreover I dun think I have the time
Most important thing, I dun have the motivation to do anything
Dunno what's happening to me nowadays
There is so much bitterness n angst in my writing..
Sometimes I think I better not blog anymore
As I dun see any point of doing it in that case
Dear God
Please bring back the happiness in me...
nuthin else matters... @ 10:03 PM ::
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Heya peeps...
I'm back
Didn't realised that I have not been blogging for quite a while
Been very busy
Mood's not good
My laptop's having PMS as well
Hhehe
Anyways...some updates
I went out with my poly frens last weekend
I would have regret it if I didnt go
We had such a nice time together
Still my crazy bunch of frens
Juz more matured now heheh
I told them abt my werries
And they tell me things from their perspective
Somehow it makes me feel better
I guess human can never ever be satisfied with watever they have yeah?
So now career worries aside...
My son has been sick
Started out with a flu on sunday
Then he suddenly develop asthma on tuesday
He can't breathe
Keep wheezing in his sleep
He kept vomitting after milk
Its like having my childhood
Flashback right in front of me
Everybody keep asking why
Why it happens and stuffs like that
Blame it on food la, chocolates la, cold drinks la
Why dun say it straight to my face?
I'm the asthmatic gene carrier here
Esp hubby...disappointed in him
His family never had history of asthma
Somehow its difficult for him to understand
Making it sounds like as if its so unlucky to be asthmatic
Like as if we r some kind of weirdos
Childhood asthma is pretty common in Singapore
How can it not be in a country like this
He's afraid that Syafiq gonna grew up weak or sumthing
A few of my cousins are asthmatic
Doing well in life, active in sports and so on
I believe we all have more energies than any other non-asthmatics ard
Please stop this misconception of us being weak
I dun want my kid to grew up thinking so as well
nuthin else matters... @ 11:43 PM ::
Monday, July 12, 2004
Its monday again...
And guess wat, me having one of those moods again :(
Not good eh?
U ppl could have guess from the absence of entries last week
Recently..I've been in and out of this foul mood quite frequently
Nuthing much to write abt my daily routines too
True to wat nanie said
I dun really keep up with every little things I do or buy on blog
Unless you are the bragger kind
Who cares rite?
I'm looking for a new school for my son
For he's starting nursery next year
He's a super active kid
And I find that his current school didnt pay attention to his little needs
Mebbe he's better off at a montessori based pre-school
Any suggestions??
Any of you have good experiences?
Last sat, I went to a sec sch fren's wedding dinner
As usual, this is the time when we will meet up the ppl
That we have not seen for many years
I saw my nus frens..
My juniors from sec sch..
My distant couzies..
My childhood friends..
Everybody changed alot
And have achieved alot in life
Some reflections on myself
My super sad story
'So wat r u doing now?' some ask
'Err..nuthing much..' I said...'stay at home looked after kids'
Some said ok..n kept quiet
Others look at me in disbelief
Like as if I am wasting my life
Am I?
I hate social gathering for that reason
Everybody would be bragging abt their career
Their so called big house..car..watever
We are in the era where everybody wants to be better than anybody else
What happen to humility?
This coming sat, I gonna have another gathering
With my poly frens
I can foresee
Same thing will happen
Everybody will be talking abt their jobs
Some office politics
Or post-grad studies they r doing
While me..I will juz keep quiet
Keep swearing to my plate
Hoping that everything will end soon
Dear frens, hear me out
I do want to be like any of u
High-paying job n so on
But at the moment my career is on a hiatus
I love to meet up with all of u every now n then
Juz dun let me be anti-social
Avoiding gatherings n so on
Bcoz of that little difference between us
nuthin else matters... @ 1:50 PM ::
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Juz dun feel like blogging these days
Me going through a routine
Of schools n tuitions
Nuthing much to talk abt
I'm so sick that I dun have free time for myself anymore
I know I shouldn't be complaining
But then again
I can't help it not to feel unhappy
And it seems like so many servers are down
Can't delete emails..
Can't open up fotopages..
What nonsense?
Things got werst with my obselete laptop
I really need to get a new PC very soon
nuthin else matters... @ 12:29 AM ::
Friday, July 02, 2004
So much things had happened this week
Finally its friday again
Me as usual
Had been busy with enrichment courses n tuitions
And still think that teaching suxx
Will never hope that I'm gonna love it
Major blackout on tues night
Yes, I wasnt spared
Was crossing the road on the way back from tuition
And suddenly everything turned pitch-black
Here am I still in the middle of the road
Trying to decide if I shld continue walking
As not sure of the on-coming vehicles
Thats not that bad
The werst was that
I've got to climb stairs to my 14th floor
Sweating all over....n no fan!
Argh!
I like saturday
Coz its the day when I can spend time with my family
Bring my kids out n so on
Thinking of watching Spiderman 2 with syafiq tomorrow
nuthin else matters... @ 11:32 PM ::
