Friday, October 28, 2005

Juz like in the midst of a long-distance run
The fatigue is overpowering
Your muscles are giving up on you
You can't hyperventilate any faster
But once you see the finishing line
There is a sudden surge of energy
Coming from nowhere
To sprint all the way...

Thats exactly how I feel at the moment
Call it maternal instinct
Or juz the anxious me
I've been cleaning up this and that
Throwing out things
Doing laundry and stuffs
To prepare for hari raya
And also the arrival of the 3rd one

Things are definitely not going the way I wanted it to be
But its ok I guess
It is always the case for me
Baby's stuffs not completed yet
Hari raya's preparation almost zilch
Proving that
A woman's presence in a household is essential
And when she decided to go MIA
The side-effects are atrocious

My wait is coming to an end
Almost 36 weeks now
I'll be bumpless
In a week or 2
Mebbe by the time I do the next entry
I'll be a proud mum of 3
And everything will be juz alrite
Insya-Allah

nuthin else matters... @ 7:53 AM ::

Monday, October 17, 2005

My weekends were great once again
On saturday, I went to geylang to get baju kurung for the kids
And after which we had iftar at my in-laws place
Sunday, we put the kids at my in-laws
And run some errands once again
Mostly to DIY shop and some groceries shopping for the week
My house needed some fixing b4 the baby's arrival
Or else we wouldn't have much time later on

Syafiq had asthma again
Getting frequent now
At least once a month
But was juz a mild one that could be relieved using the ventolin inhaler
And there..they go again
About how his asthmatic tendencies gonna make him a weak person
Restricting him from doing this and that
Poor him...can't eat this and that..
While other kids are enjoying them
And why is he soo skinny?

Juz enuff to put me in depression
Why cant u ppl give me a break?
I'm beginning to feel happy
I guess since I'm the cause of him being so
Hubby should have married someone fat and asthma-less eh?
So that they can produce many, many asthma-free and obese babies

Combined with monday blues
I had that unhappiness feeling once again
Hated staying at home
I dun see the joy of anything anymore
To the point that I can't even appreciate jokes
Luckily I still have tuition with a relative
Hence giving me a reason to stay away from home

Brought the kids to the library today
Syafiq is sick but no one is taking care of him at home
And hence I've got to drag him to tuition with me
Borrowed some books on animals and dinosaurs
To keep him occupied for a few hours or so
So that I could teach in peace

One thing that I would love to do
Is to move far, far away from here
*isn't that everybody's wish? ;)*
Yeah..but really...
I dun see the point of staying here in sg anymore
Nuthing to look forward to
Not like as if I have family
Or a posh job to hang on to
I have nuthing except for hubby and the boys

nuthin else matters... @ 11:42 AM ::

Friday, October 14, 2005

80% of my students have ended their exams
And hence marked the end of our tuition days
If my assistance is required again
I will see them again only next year

Now its time for me to organise my things
Prepare watever needed to be prepared
So many things to be done
But I will take it slow

From now on, whether I puasa or not
I will buka at home
With my beloved family
No more running around outside
From one place to the next

I can start wiping dust off my recipe books
And try new recipes for buka
I always try to keep buka as simple as possible
Everyday, hubby will bring home bubur masjid from a certain mosque
I will prepare a dish..
Usually to go with breads or noodles
And occasionally we will have rice
Other than that we will have a different drink and dessert everyday
Weekends. we will buka at my in-laws place..or somewhere outside

How nice...
We rarely get to sit down n eat together as a family
On other days
Due to the hectic schedule
Shouldnt waste the opportunity
As it only lasted a month..

nuthin else matters... @ 12:11 PM ::

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Didn't get the opportunity to wish everyone 'Selamat berpuasa'
When Ranadhan started last week
As I was so busy with the exams

Anyways,

Selamat berpuasa to All!

I had a rather peaceful weekend last week
No more jemputans of any kind
Hence I can devote all my time to juz tuitions and spending quality time with my family
This week will be my last week having such an 'action-packed' schedule
I realised I need to slow down a bit

I had 4 tuitions back to back yesterday
Got back home with all sort of pains everywhere
I felt sick
My heading was spinning and I felt like vomitting
I had talked non-stop for 8 hours straight
No meal or drink breaks...rushed through my iftar
Even so, I have people asking me why am I late..
Sigh

8 and a half months preggy now..
It wouldn't be long till I feel that same pain again
Till I have the little one in my arms again
So much anticipation...no doubt

Can't wait to be resting at home till the time comes
Some of my tuition kids have ridiculous demands
Having me fitting into their schedule as and when they like
Clashing with my gynae appointment and my son's birthday
Sumthing I will not compromised about

My son is having exams this week too
And I dun even have time to talk to him
As I was busy teaching other unappreciative kids
I dun think my time wasted with them
Is werth at all
Some doing tuitions like as if they were serving time
Keep looking at clock wundering if its over
Instead of using all those time gaining as much knowledge as possible

I know my son is in sekolah main2...and I shldnt be worry
But when the time comes, I will want to devote all my time coaching my kids only

nuthin else matters... @ 7:54 AM ::

Monday, October 03, 2005

I had quite a bz but satisfying weekend
Good to be busy coz it will definitely distract me from worrying
Went to Isaac's cukur rambut on sat
Apit's birthday party and hubby's colleague's wedding on sun
Stuffing myself like nobody's business
And found that I have a few craving heh
My sweet tooth is growing bigger each day
I have to get my chocolate or ice-cream or cakes fix almost everyday

nuthin else matters... @ 11:15 AM ::