Friday, December 31, 2004
I can't sleep yesterday
Dunno why..
I tossed n turned but still not sleeping
While lying in the bed
My whole life in 2004 seems to be flashing in my mind
Whatever I've
done..good or bad
Whatever I've
thought about
My varied
feelings towards alot of things, ppl n so on
And what I have
achieve..
And what have I actually achieved this year??
Nuthing much...I guess..
Sigh
Finally, I fall asleep at 5am
When I woke up in the morning
I read the papers
Same news again
All these
tsunamis disaster
Dead people,
missing people
Is getting on me
Summore it has been raining today
Read another news
Dubai is
snowing for the 1st time this year
Weird? Cool?
Eerie I would say..
It reminds me so much of
The day after tomorrow movie
Urgh...All these
things and thoughts are making me
depressed today
Frens are asking me...wher r u going for
countdown?
Do u think we should even proceed with the celebration?
Malaysia has cancelled everything...good la...u r doing ur job
Mass tahlil for these ppl would be a
better choice
Singapore decided to proceed
But gonna toned down everything
No
live broadcast on Channel 5
I guess when ppl are
sober, they can think n be sensitive
But when they r
highly intoxicated
Do you think they would
care?
Do you think they
bother that u r in a
new yr without your
loved ones by your side?
I juz feel like staying at home today
Wher I feel most safe
Be with my family
And thank
God that I welcome a
brand new year with them by my side
nuthin else matters... @ 2:17 PM ::
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Supposed to be meeting my
poly frens today
To celebrate
Dec babies birthdays...
*
All the 5 of us happen to be born in Dec*
Sumhow
one by one couldn't make it
So we ended up
postponing to next week
In the end, met up with Ju
To accompany her looking for a new laptop
She already had her eyes on
Powerbook
And also the
iPod
Now I also got
terbabit...can't help it la
Its a
pretty little thing
As usual we had our
dinner at
Far East Plaza
And before we could even finish eating
We were told to
evacuate the building
Somehow the building is on fire
We started smelling smoke
Ppl shouting..closing shops in a
rush
Reminds me of
Jakarta...really...
Kinda
eerie feeling..
Eversince the
tsunamis incident..
Wunder whats running in those ppls' mind
At the
last moment
Feeling helpless....nuthing much that they can do..
*Shudder at the thought*
After we left Far East Plaza,
We had our
R & R time at
Starbucks
And after some shots of caffeine
The
feelings of paranoia fade away
Into
jokes and laughter
Tomorrow will mark the last day of 2004
In the midst of new year's celebration
Lets not forget the tragedy thats has happened ard us
For it reminds us that nuthing is impossible
Lots of prayers for the victims
nuthin else matters... @ 11:50 PM ::
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
After so
many days of complaining
Bored, bored n bored..
A fren asked me this...
What's ur interest?
Mebbe you can
work on it
First thing that came to my mind
Would be
reading, movies and nature
So when did I last read a
good book?
Or catch a
movie?
Or have a walk in a
rainforest?
_____________________________
I cant even remember when..
I believed I've been so
preoccupied with my married life
My kids, doing housework n the normal routine
That I forgot..
what actually make me smile
Other than being with my kids
What actually makes my day
Other than cooking n washing
Biology
Another interest of mine
Have I read any
good journals lately?
Nah..
Have I been
updating myself with new informations?
Nah..
Basically, I've not been doing anything relating to this
Eversince I graduated from NUS almost 3 years ago..
Am I really
wasting my life?
Like what some of my single frens always say?
For a start, I think I should
drop by to the library in the morning
Get a book
And
Read
nuthin else matters... @ 1:41 AM ::
Friday, December 24, 2004
Merry Christmas..
And Happy holidays peeps..
Its the start of the
Mango Sale yesterday
I thought I wanna drop by to
look see look see
And guess what?
I got
terbabit into it...
I reached Orchard Mrt station ard 3 plus
The east-west train was so packed
I dunno where all these ppl came from
Once I reached
Orchard..my God..the train station is
soo packed with ppl
I went straight to the
Shaw House Mango boutique
There is a queue outside...girls inside going
crazy...
Bought a few tops...couldnt find jeans my size..so I moved on to
Isetan Mango
They dun have much choices as well...
So I moved on to
Isetan Wisma..then
Takashimaya
Now I saw this pants I want...n dun have size oso
My brain's screaming..telling me
go go go..to move on to another boutique
But my legs aching...telling me to
quit it..n go home
At last..I give in..
And went to
Mango Raffles City and
Suntec City
Not bad eh?
I covered
6 Mango boutiques in one day
Excluding the east side ones
Which I dun think have much to offer
Quite
happy with what I've got..
Even though I still can't get the suit pants n jeans that I want
nuthin else matters... @ 9:22 AM ::
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Is the
title of my blog
And for once I
wished I hadn't dreamt last nite
I dreamt sumthing
bad happen to my hubby
*touch many many wood*
I went
hysterical and cried
The dream is so
vivid that
I actually did
Cried in my sleep
I woke up in the
middle of nite still crying
Only to find him sound asleep next to me
*phew*
Its only times like this
You will
treasure what you have
I know there are times
When I forgot to show
affection
Or
appreciate what you did for me
But
I still love you dearly
After 9 years together
Its
impossible to imagine life without you
"...Some people want diamond rings, Some just want everything, But everything means nuthing, If I ain't got you..."
The lyrics to this song is juz soo true
If given a choice of
everything in the world n him
I will still choose him n his
irritating ways hahha
Sheeshh...That dream is really making me
paranoid
People say whatever you dream
The opposite happens
I hope so too
Coz I wanna grow old with you...
nuthin else matters... @ 1:12 PM ::
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
I know I shouldn't
complain
I
should make full use of it
While I still have all my
free days
Coz once the school reopen
I'll be too
bz even for myself
But I can't help it
And I've juz gotta to say it
I'M BORED!!!
There is a
limited number of hours
Whereby I can stay at home
In which I will
utilise doing the housework
And spending
quality time with kids
And today, all housework done
My kids slept over at my in-laws place
Today they bringing them
jalan-jalan again
Rindu la katakan
Coz they too juz came back from a week hols in
Kashmir
I thot I wanna bring the kids to the
playground
Or to Compass point..
Boys, come
home quick please...
nuthin else matters... @ 3:30 PM ::
Sunday, December 19, 2004
I'm back peeps
Hhehe
After a week in
KL
I can't deny it
I
truely enjoy my whole time there
Who wouldn't man!
I would love to shift over there...anytime..
I went with my hubby's cousins
Plus the kids
Ok..the kids part...this is our first time travelling
Juz the 4 of us
Without the
'always kasi chan' grandparents
So its kinda tiring
Managing the two
But its definitely an experience that I wouldn't forget
Once again..
The first 3 days were spent at
Colmar Tropicale
Previously I dropped by ..but I didn't stay
This time we stayed there for
3 nites
A
bit too long I should say
Feeling bored, cold and hungry
We eat
anything..
We do
anything..
From playing arcades to pool to bowling to table tennis to karaoke
Hwahwahwha..lepak kan...
But then again...
bila lagi seh nak ade chan buat benda merepek ni macam
Betul tak?
Then we move over to Kl and stay at Hotel Istana
For another 3 nites
Once in KL...
everything seems rushing
We dun have enuff time to do alot
Even though we try to
squeeze in as much as we can ehehe
The best part..We managed to visit
Putrajaya
A truely
magnificent place
The
twin tower never fails to fill me with awe everytime
This is even better
Malaysians...
I'm really
impressed with their capabilities
Anyway...I still have not gotten myself anything for my birthday
Hmmm..
*Actually, I got myself 2 pairs of shoes and a bag in KL...but not counted la...thats juz plain shopping ehheeh*
Maybe juz a simple treat
A
massage maybe?
Or a..
Hair trim? with
highlights or sumthing??
Peeps....
free tomorrow??? wanna
meet up?????
nuthin else matters... @ 10:44 PM ::
Friday, December 10, 2004
I've juz gotta add another entry today
Happy Birthday Taufik!
We happen to be sharing the
same birthday
As I juz realised
:)
When I woke up today
I had a smile on my face
And the thot..
Its my Birthday today! flashed in my mind
After which it juz faded off as...
Ahh..So wat, no big deal..
And I got up and continue with my normal daily routine
This makes me realise
That as we grow
older
The addition of number to our age
Doesnt matter much anymore
Its a
scary thot even
Thinking that we are growing older
Time not much left...eh?
Its even scarier if we gonna face the
change of decade
From being a 20-something becoming 30-something...then 40-something and so on
It used to be so much different
During our carefree days..isnt it?
We waited every single year...to celebrate our birthday
As kids...nuthing else to look forward to..other than the
toys, gifts n so on
As teenagers....we need the addition of number to gain access to sumthing
To be able to date..
To be able to go into clubs...
To be able to watch RA shows...
Which is
really a big deal then
Does it matter now?
Do u even do this often?
Nah...not anymore?
nuthin else matters... @ 1:27 PM ::
Finally, I turned 26
Being a December baby has its pros and cons
Most importantly I'll be young always hhaha
Secondly, its around the Christmas season
Plenty of ideas for gifts eh??
But then again...sigh, i'm always the last one to celebrate my birthday
Me and my bestfren shared the same birthdate
Both of us had our birthday on the 10th
But one month apart
It has always been a joke between us
It could be that number 10 that kept our friendship strong ehhe
After all these years...eh ju?
Today, I went out with my secondary school frens
One of the girls is back from UK
And is going back this saturday
Thot we could juz meet up for dinner for the last time just before she leaves
Little did I knew that they planned to celebrate my birthday a day earlier as well
We went to Max Brenners for chocolate indulgence
Coz Nanie teringin nah nak gi sana
Along with that they got me a chocolate cake
Thanx gerls for that lovely and tasty chocolate cake!!
I shall not put up any more photos of myself
Coz I think I'm all over their blogs already haha
Please proceed to my fotopages if u wanna see the pics
Once again..THANK YOU SO MUCH
For the splendid evening
We shall do it again in a month's time eh? Shall we? ;)
nuthin else matters... @ 1:49 AM ::
Monday, December 06, 2004
My fren asked me this
Eh do u ever feel jealous than your cousin or relative got a better partner than you?
Define better..
Better in wat ways?
Looks? Saving acct? Career? Behaviour? Religious knowledge?
If better in all ....bagus la...Syukur Alhamdulillah...rezeki dia...juz be happy for her
But I'm sure there will be some area in which the partner is better of than others
But why compare?
Comparing is one very bad habit
Coz once u start comparing, u will feel inadequate
Hence resulting to some unhappiness
Even though..to others
What u have...is already sumthing to envied for
My auntie came to my house the other day and ask
Ida, bila nak pindah rumah besar? rumah ni dah berapa tahun? kalau dah 5 tahun..boleh la pindah..
Whats the obsessions with big house amg the malays?
Teringat kan rumah kampung?
Forget it la...if u wanna continue living in Singapore in flats
There is juz so much that u can get
And it comes with a life-long loan repayments...
Is it werth it?
Cakap pasal mewah?
Konon nya rumah besar lagi mewah
Condo or semi-d lagi mewah..tapi kecik jugak ape..
When i go visiting my relatives
I can see there are some of them
Who has been staying at their super-cramped 3-room flat
All their life...say abt 30 yrs?
Some dun even have cd or dvd player
Let alone a dvd recorder
But I still can see the contentment in the eyes
Happy as a family
Thats what I would like to achieve
All that matters, u and ur family are happy
Tak kisah la if we dun have everything in life
Coz life is also not permanent
Juz treasure and be happy with what you have at the moment
Its too late to regret once its taken back from you..
Not only life can be taken back
Every single thing that you possess can be taken back
Dengan sekelip mata
nuthin else matters... @ 1:10 PM ::
Sunday, December 05, 2004
Another thing that I dun like is
Weddings time hari raya
Org dah la kesuntukan masa nak pergi menziarah sanak saudara
Nak kena gi org kawin lagi
During the 3rd of 4th week...not so bad la
Yg ade 2nd week dah nak kawin..
Tak sabar ke?
And another thing I noticed
For the past few weddings that I have attended
Nowadays malays juz wanna have simple, budget weddings
Weddings are no longer sumthing impressive
Once in a lifetime grand affair
True?
Bukan nak kutuk ke hapa la..
Coz I myself dun believe in splurging for weddings
What matters is how the couple lead their life after that
Kalau ade grand wedding..tapi lepas seminggu dah bercerai pun buat ape kan..betul tak?
Asalkan cukup syarat...selamat diakad nikah...sudah la
Ish..Pasal raya ni...I suddenly sounds like makcik kepo eh?
Isshh....selisih
Anyways...What I actually wanted to say is..
I wanna wished my SHSS frens who got married this weekend
CONGRATULATIONS
To Nora and Shahrin, Mohsin and Darlina & Lita and Omar
nuthin else matters... @ 1:01 PM ::
Saturday, December 04, 2004
I'm still kelam kabut trying to finish up my visitings
I still have soo many houses to go with so little time
Hubby down with flu
Together with my short trip to KL
Making things werst!
I still have not visited my good frens too...sigh
And today,a fren called..
And she said, 'Eh wanna go out tonite? catch a show or wat...'
Are you crazy or wat?
Aku terkejar kejar nak gi rumah sedara...sambil nak gi wedding lagi
Kau nak tengok wayang??
So I said...nola...aku nak gi jalan raya
And she said, 'hah!? masih jalan raya?'...and she laff...
This kind of conversation irritates me
Its not like as if i enjoy running ard visiting relatives
Haf of which I dun even know
But there are some things u juz have got to do it
Especially when u are married
U have double the relatives to visit
Everytime when we r abt to go out
The argument starts
Whose relative's house to go first
But the same thing happen every year
We cant never finish it
Then MIL start talking...
Why never go to so n so's house? tak baik tau..
If I sacrifice my relative's house
My mum pulak will start talking.....sigh
So those SINGLES out there...
I know your hari raya is limited to the first 2 days only
You can choose whether or not to visit certain relatives
For me, I dun have a choice
So dun ridicule us the MARRIED ones
Like as if we are hard up for duit collection budak2
Sampai jalan raya siang malam pagi petang
nuthin else matters... @ 1:47 PM ::
